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It's been awhile since I last wrote something... The arrival of Eden really change our life totally. Now when was the last time I could sleep from night to dawn without waking up...hmmm.. But no matter how tiring it gets, one look at her, it's all worthwhile. Alot of time when i carry her in my arms, I just feel so touched... I just thank God so much for her.. She is slowly growing each day.. There's still a long way here ahead.. I don't know what's ahead.. Commiting everything to God is not a religious peace of mind thing.. Where do you wanna go without God? What can you do without God? You use your own wisdom to lead and guide you.. but what do you gain in the end? You keep the hurt and pain in your heart? Then you ask God why wouldn't they go away? 

Just as I love Eden with all my heart and soul.. God's love for me.. for her.. is much more than anything else..  

Finally! after so long, my daugther is going to be born on the 30th of May... My wife's pregnancy hasn't been smooth and now that she is in her last trimester, her condition is still quite bad. She is crying herself to sleep almost every night because of her backache and the pain around her rib cage.... so we have decided to go for C-section. KKH doesn't allow husband to be in the theater room!!! So most likely I will be moon walking up and down the waiting room! Maybe I should go steal a doc's robe and go in to pretend I'm observing!!!

'It's too high to get over, it's too low to get under, you're stuck in the middle, and the pain is thunder..'
Wanna Be Startin' Somethin' 1982 (Michael Jackson)

This pretty much describe how I've been feeling for the past few weeks... I have 2 sailings coming up.. 22-24th May and 5-9 June... My wife's due date is on the 11th of June. She is most likely to give birth anytime in the next 4 weeks... But up to now, I can't find any replacement for these 2 trips and my officers are not very keen in helping me to find one... I know they have more important works to do... 

My plan now is, if i still can't find any replacement esp for the June sailing, I will have to send my wife for C-section on the 31_^st May. I really don't wanna to be
out in the sea when my wife give birth... So help me God... Have mercy on me...

This is a song I wrote for my daughter...

因为你 

因为你 我的世界变美丽
因为你 我的生活有意义
因为你 我变得有勇气
因为你 就是一个奇迹
因为你...

自从有了你, 一切变得不容易
但是因为你, 一切都不成问题
我只要你好好牢记
一定要合神心意...

Left only about 6.5 weeks... The tension is slowly slowly building up for me and my wife.. We were preparing THE BAG a few days ago.. Both of us have a very strong feeling that Eden will come out earlier than the due date... I really don't know what to expect... My wife don't know whether she will be able to take the pain... We are just praying that God will let her come her in a right time =) Eden is now moving alot and causing great uncomfort to my wife..

What are some of the important things that a normally Singaporean male must accomplish in his life? Get a well-paid job, get married, have child, buy a flat? I wouldn't say my job is paying alot but for a cook, it's not bad lah... and I have finally achieved them all yesterday... Becos my dad wants to sell this house that we are living in now, so he kept pestering me to go find my own hse since my wife already got her PR. We went to look at this flat (still in woodlands) yesterday and we love it at first sight! we went to look at 2 more flats after that but we still prefers the first one. So during the evening, we brought my father to go and view this house. He give me his approval and we signed the papers! It's really a good buy because the sellers (who are also Christian) are willing to sell us at the evaluation price. The interior of the house is still very well kept and there is recently a new grant which means I can have another $15,000 grant. Praise God for the prefect timing!!! But i still can't believe that at such a young age... I'm having all these... So now, I have join the Great Singaporean Debt and owns the biggest Debters, our government! We will be getting the key in late June and hopefully we can get the hse done up in July. Then we can have the house warming and Eden's full mth celebration together! but then... like that lesser gifts hor? =P

This is how the living room roughly looks like... nice rite?!?